Just Can't Do This Again

Tonight my mom was taken to the hospital, again... This time it was due to some extended flu-like symptoms. For the last week, she has been sick in bed. Part of me is sitting here wondering why I'm still at home, but the other part is thinking I just can't do this again this quickly.

Having just gone through the loss of one mom, I can't even fathom the loss of another. Even if this isn't as serious as the spots on her X-ray indicate, it was serious enough to make them look. Somehow, I just don't have a good feeling about this at all.

Thinking back to the first time this happened, it was the same flu-like symptoms that led to the scans and visits to the doctors. That was so long ago, yet still so fresh in our minds. A bad period of time that we thought we had made it through. Still, we find ourselves facing this once again.

The doctors haven't said it. There is no confirmation yet. There is only that gut feeling that this isn't right. That something horrible is on the horizon. That all these doctors have missed the bigger problem over the last few months.

For now, I'll remember 3 and a half years ago, when my little girl came into the world and her Grammers was right there to meet her. I'll begin praying for help, healing and understanding. Especially the understanding most of all. I just don't know what or how to process this if it is the worst case scenario... I don't even know where to start with it...

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Hearing A Song For The First Time, Again

I have to admit that I loved the song, Live Like You Were Dying, way before this morning. This cold morning this amazing song took on a new meaning for me. I'm not sure what happened this particular time hearing it, but it meant more.

Today, this Tim McGraw track just jumped out of the radio and kicked me in the head. It was like it was aimed at me, mixed in between Garth and The Band Perry... All songs about glory, love and death. Strange but true, and very inspirational.

So join me now. Meet someone new, try something different and maybe even eat something you never dreamed of. Make today count more than yesterday. Make tomorrow count more than today. Get out and make life happen. We only live once, and we don't have an expiration date printed on us.

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Not Sleeping? Me Either...

This is one of those not so fun nights that I've been experiencing this week. Evie has been up and down most of the night. Ara is catching up on some lost sleep and I am wide awake blogging again. It is frustrating, but I feel so on edge about letting her sleep that I feel like I have to listen for Evie and her every attempt at waking up...

It isn't logical, nor is it something I should even worry about. Unfortunately, I do. I should just put my phone down and get to sleep right now. After all, we were in bed over an hour ago ready to fall asleep. Look at how time flies when your having fun.

Oh side note... That image above was taken of our little crazy baby at Burger Madness in Monroe. She was glued to SpongeBob Squarepants and didn't even notice me snagging it. I then popped it into Fhotoroom, cropped it and filtered it. Turned out pretty good for a restaurant/jammies shot.

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